...Promises...
Mar 13, 2004 3.13 p.m
Wah... so long never write my blog liao. Hehehe~ yey!!! Tomorrow's my birthday! Lalala~ so happy!! My mom say she wants to get me a new phone as a birthday present!! Woo hoo~ i can't wait!! Hehe... can see i very excited hor?! Okok... before i start going crazy, i think i better start writing the blog. If you ever come over here, you might see that my mood changes everytime and there was once i wrote i was angry with mrs ngiam. Yup.. i was damn angry!! I wanted to write on my blog one.. but too busy le, then can only update the top. Let's start from where i can remember. Eh~ let's see... orh!! Er.. i didn't hand in my assignments and then during poa lessons, mdm quek took my ez-link card from me cause i didn't showed her my file. Argh!! Then history lessons wasn't that bad. Well... poa wasn't that bad~ i was getting interested in the subject again. Wow~ surprising sia.. i used to dislike poa ALOT! Then i had F&N lessons. That was the worst! I got scoldings from mrs ngiam for the whole of *can you believe it!?* 5 periods!! Wah!! Really can't stand her nagging, you know!? After that, i really cannot stand it so i was like "haiya!! You see me not happy then you kick me la! As if i want to be in this class and see your face like that!" and i threw the book. Then everyone in class was looking at me and they were like "lijing... lac lac la... relax~". I was really mad at her! I know you all must be thinking that i deserve it cause i didn't hand in my work and all that and then how come i so fierce de!? I mean ya... i do deserve it. I didn't say i didn't deserve it but then scold for 5 straight periods?! You've got to be kidding!! Sorry baby... i don't have that much tolerance. And ya~ i sometimes get really fierce... but that's when i'm really mad. I don't care if you're a teacher or whosoever. As long as i can't take it, i'll just vent it out. That's just me... but usually i don't get angry easily unless... i pms la. Now i'm still trying very hard to control my emotions especially, this bad temper of mine. Something funny happened that day. I forgot that my ez-link card was with mdm quek so thinking that i still had my ez-link card, i tried tapping my wallet still thinking that the card was inside. Later, i went to the back of the bus cause there were still other people behind me. Then i realised that my card was with mdm quek. I started to get worried and wondered if i still have any coins. Luckily, i added up all my coins and i did have enough. The 55 cents were mostly made up of 5 cents! Hahaha... and i managed to use up all. When i got home, i quickly did my poa homework and the filing. I didn't even bother with F&N. The next day, i went to school with vanessa *chan*. I told her about what happened during F&N lessons. She was in such a shock and she thought i've gone crazy. When we reached school, the music was already on. But vanessa still wanted to walk slowly and so i walked slowly with her. Later she asked me to wait outside the D&T room with her as she didn't want to go to the carpark that fast. Reluctantly, i waited with her. Guess what happens next? Mrs ngiam came out from the D&T room! Wah... sick sia~! So when i saw her, i walked away as i really didn't feel like seeing her face. Later, she called me and asked for my work. I told her i haven't finish yet and again she blew up! She was like "lijing... if you still don't hand in your work, i tell you ah.. i'll go to your house and get it.". Again, i gave that kind of like can't be bothered face and even rolled my eyes. So i talked back " you can come over to my house then say la..". i tell you, she blew up ah! Vanessa was just there looking... and after saying that, i walked off. Later i told vanessa if we didn't walked slowly and haven't we waited there, mrs ngiam and i wouldn't have clashed again. Alas~ that wasn't entirely true. Cause she came over to my class after morning assembly. She came over to get homework.. and she still can ask me again for my work! As if she didn't hear enough just now!! So i told her "i thought i just now tell you liao ma?!". I think she also cannot be bothered with me ah. The rest of the day wasn't that bad as i handed in my poa file and we spent the whole of poa lessons filing. I managed to get my ez-link card back from mdm quek. Early in the morning after assembly, mrs ngiam was already in my class waiting for us. Haiz... sian leh! She started to demand the work from me. I gave her those that i have done. Then i told her the rest i would give her later. She asked me when is my later so i told her i would give her during remedial. I could see she was like "haiz~ lijing... you're hopeless already!" and i was like "i know." I had 2 tests yesterday, 1 was vocabulary test and the other was e-maths test. The vocab test i've got 81 upon 100. The other one, i'm still worried about my marks. That day, i skipped chinese remedial because i had not done my F&N workbook so i skipped and stayed behind to do. After the chinese remedial, corrine and i went to meet ken and qingfeng. Corrine wanted to see how qingfeng looked like and we could hang out as normal. In the end, we did nothing. Then the 3 of them were like so damn quiet and corrine got mad! I tell you, i'm even angrier! In the first place, i didn't want to go and if it wasn't corrine who "dragged" me there, i would have been in school and yet, that corrine and that qingfeng both like that. *rolled eyes* I hate this kind of situation! I was the one who did most of the talking and i'm not even the main lead! Later, corrine got mad and she just walked down. So i just followed her... oops! Sorry.. not followed her, is being dragged by her! And i really mean dragged. She just took my arm and pulled me away! She pulled me real hard *at least to me, i think it was really hard* and i felt like a dog being pulled by the master. After that, we stopped cause i realised i received a message from ken. Later, i called him and he told me he was upstairs at the arcade. I looked up and saw the 2 of them standing there. So i talked to ken and later i asked him to pass the phone to qingfeng. I talked to qingfeng and as we talked, he asked me "how come the more you talk, the more fierce you sound?" Hehe~ i too agitated liao.. So later, i said we meet up again and this time, a PROPER one. We met up at popular outside and corrine was so damn quiet. Later, i looked at qingfeng and gave him the hint to talk. Then ken and qingfeng looked at me and was asking me what's wrong with corrine. So i gave them the sign that she was angry. Later as we continued talking *which makes me the only one talking*, i got really frustrated. And that corrine kept telling me to leave. I was really mad! She was the one who asked to meet up, she didn't know what to do when we meet up, she's the one wanting to leave but yet, she's the one who's angry! What kind of logic is this?! Hello~ who should be the one angrier ah?! I couldn't take it then i just said "aiya.. just let me die la!" and so i grabbed the grip and jumped up, almost going over the grip but ken grabbed me and stopped me. I guess if i die or don't die, doesn't concern corrine at all. Cause she doesn't seemed concerned at all or worried at all when i almost went over the grip. She was simply too angry! Ken held my arm really tight.. wah~ my arm went red, ok?! Nothing better to do, ken and qingfeng took the brioche *i'm not sure if the spelling is correct anot. If it's wrong, please don't blame me.* from the advertisment board and then when there was 2 children walked past, ken gave the brioche to the children! You must have thought that it was ok but then i think the brioche was about finance. Do you think that children knows about all these? Oh please~ but when i saw him giving it to the children, all of us started laughing. Later, corrine couldn't take it and she just left like that. So i followed her. This time was really follow. Then i realised i've got 2 missed calls and 1 message. I called hui zhen back and she asked me if i got go to the F&N remedial and i said ya. Well.. that's about it. The message was from ken and what did he message me? Uh ah.. i'm not going to say it here. Hehe~ only those who are really close to me then i'll say it. Then i got message qingfeng to apologise for my rudeness. Well.. luckily he didn't take it to heart. *That's what he told me la* I tell you hor.. wah~! I think the 4 of us got really pissed off! Corrine got pissed off by qingfeng and ken, ken i think he got pissed off by corrine, qingfeng i'm not so sure but i think same as ken la and as for me, i got pissed off by corrine! When i went for the remedial, mrs ngiam said "lijing, luckily you got come for the remedial. If not, i go to your house with a chopper ah!". After the remedial, i went to meet up with ken cause he said he wanted to send me home. Then at the interchange, i saw pimin and later, sock peng popped out from behind. We went home together. Then as for me and ken, we stopped at pimin's block downstairs. Well... what we did cannot be told again unless you're my best friend. Hehe~ this kind of thing cannot anyhow say out de. =p Hahaha~ i say until like we did something wrong like that. Then today, i was late for my english remedial. Haiz~ then i went to watch Haunted Mansion with grace and it was such a nice show. Hehe~ maybe if there's time, i should go watch another movie with ken. He wants to watch movie but in the end, i never go watch with him. Ken... so sorry ah! Er.. that's about it la. Tomorrow is my birthday!! Yey!! Can't wait! Going out with yan bing, cheng peng, shu yuan and chuan hui to kbox. Hehe~ but don't know whether yan bing will be happy anot cause she don't feel like going to kbox leh. In fact, she don't even feel like coming out. Haiz~ my birthday leh... also don't give face. Humpf! Hehehe~ no la.. just kidding! Don't want to come out then don't come out lor.. i also cannot do anything ma. Hehe... later going to get a new phone!! Yey!! Still thinking which phone to get.. hmm~ which is better? I don't know.. there are so many phones i like. I'm also thinking what layout i should put tomorrow. There are so many layouts i like!! Ok la.. i've got to go. I'm getting really sleepy, also don't know why. Go and get a good nap! *yawnzZzZz*

Mar 09, 2004 8.49 p.m
Hmm... actually yesterday wanted to wrote my blog de but then no time to do it. Cause need to rush my homework and somemore i'm so tired!! Actually nothing much to write la... today i got back my s.s paper. Ah!!! I failed by 3 marks!!! Well.. it's actually fail by 2 and a half mark but usually my teacher don't give half a mark so it's counted as 1 mark. Today, i skipped tuition! Hehehe... me lazy to go la.. so skip lor. Today during cme lessons, ms. ng asked all of us who we like and all that. Then when it was my turn, the whole class was just making all those funny noises. Then of course, i started laughing lor. Not that kind of laugh la.. but it's more like blushing that kind of smile. After that, jonathan asked who saw me with ken la... he didn't mention the name but he just said tootz... then half of the class raise their hands up! Wah... i didn't know so many people saw me with ken leh! Ok lor.. now the whole class know liao lor. Never mind la.. anyway i know sure cannot keep it for too long de. Haiz.. i really don't know what to write. I guess i better go do my homework since i've got nothing to write. Sianz.. tomorrow i'm having all the lessons that i hate...

Mar 07, 2004 12.54 p.m
Okok, i know i didn't write much the other time. So today i'll try to cover it up. On yan bing's birthday, i saw meng zhong and see zhong and ee yin. *i'm not sure if i spelt her name correctly* Then i said hi to them. Then i asked meng zhong and see zhong's 'o' level results. I think see zhong thought i was only talking to meng zhong so he didn't reply me. Oh well~ so meng zhong told me that he got 20+ marks for his 'o' level. Also don't know whether is it true anot. But i think it should be true ba since i asked mao wei about his 'o' level marks when i went online. ^-^ Then yesterday, vanessa *chan* and bishi came over to my house having the intention of playing the sims. But alas! So happened I realised that the sims cannot be played. I didn't know! And the worse thing was i couldn't reinstall it cause i lent all my the sims cds to corrine!! Haiz... so no choice, we had to use the internet. Well... at least i think they rather enjoyed themselves. After vanessa and bishi left, i went out with ken. At first, we wanted to go watch movie... but you know... i don't really like watching movies. I mean i do but just not in the cinema. I prefer watching vcds. Hehe~ So in the end, we didn't watch it. So we just anyhow walk walk and then from jurong entertainment to imm. From imm to some country club *er... don't know what's that country club called*. So we played arcade to around 7-8+. Then we walked to a coffeeshop to eat. In the end, i didn't eat and all i drank was milo and i was already full! I watched him eat and wah~ eat so fast sia!! Then after that, he bought a can of drink and within 3 gulps, he finished it!! Wah!!! Don't know what kind of person is he?! Eat and drink so fast de!!! As we walked home, i saw joe at around 9+. At first we didn't recognise each other cause it was too dark but after we walked past each other, we recognised each other then we just waved goodbye. Then at night, we sat at pimin's block downstairs to talk. Hehe.. we didn't talk much la.. but we just held hands lor and then he got hug me la. He did kiss my cheek lor.. but that's it! So don't worry about me, guys! He's not really that bad. Well... at least i don't think he is. At least i think he's better than eric. He didn't even ask if i want to kiss him anot. Haiz... anyway, he went to buy drinks from the vending machine. While he went to buy his drink, i looked behind. Then i saw this girl in white who has got really long hair just standing at one side of the block looking at me. I can't really make out her face as it was too dark and besides, i'm short-sighted. So later, i asked ken if he could see a girl as i pointed the girl. He told me he couldn't! Can you imagine how freaked out i was when he said he couldn't!? I was like "please don't tell me i'm seeing things?!". So again, i asked him to look properly but he said he couldn't. He thought that i was scaring him but i wasn't! Later, he could see how freaked out i was so he sat beside me and held me tight. Then he told me not to think too much. So after that, i couldn't stand it so i said i wanted to go home. As much as i want to stay with him, but i'm just really freaked out! So we walked past the position the girl was standing earlier on. As we walked on, we walked past a group of maids *at least i think they are* and then ken told me that, perhaps is one of the maids because one of them has got really long hair and she's wearing white as well. I felt so much better thinking that it's just my imagination. But i still felt scared cause after all, i've seen it. When i got home, i was all alone at home. It's so damn creepy cause my house is so dark and it's so quiet. And it looks as though anything is going to crawl out from the corridor. So at night, ken sms me and we just sms each other all night. What did we talk about? *Shake head* I'm not going to tell you. Secret secret~ =p unless you're my best friend la.. then i'll tell you. Then just now, i went to look at houses. The first one was nice but quite expensive. The other two so happened were at sock peng's block but they weren't nice at all. They look quite run down and shabby. Besides, i don't think my opinion alone is going to make a difference. I've got to go. I'm going to meet han kee later on to accompany her.

Mar 05, 2004 11.18 p.m
Today is yan bing's birthday! I bought her a comic. Then after school, i went to meet her at jurong east control station. We went to kbox to sing. Then we gave her the birthday cake. So while taking the picture of her with the birthday cake, the candles got shorter and shorter until it burnt the happy birthday sign! Wahaha~ so funny!! So we sang the whole day until now lor... *yawn* so tired. Then i realised that the comic book i bought for yan bing as her birthday present, she already had it! How embarrasing!! Then somehow ken is acting really weird today. He doesn't seem to have any mood at all. Don't know why also. Ask him but he also don't want to tell me. Haiz... today like nothing to write leh. I've got to go... after one whole day of fun, i still have to go do my history project!! And tomorrow still got poa remedial!! Somemore have to reach school by 7.20 as i'm meeting corrine there. Okok... enough talk... i better go.

Mar 04, 2004 9.09 p.m
Alright! That's it! I'm not going to send the song anymore! Aiyo~ I know the song for the previous archive was nice but also don't have to like that one ma! Ever since i've put up that song in the archive, my friends have all been asking me to send that song to me!! For those who still wants to listen to that song, i'm still putting up in the archive. I hope you all know it's under which one. Woohoo!! I finally put up the final fantasy layout together with the theme song! I just love the layout!! I think the introduction during the sea is very nice so i decided to put it up.. hehe~ =p Okok... now for some serious business. Haiz... so fast it's been 4 days since i've updated here. And during these 4 days, alot of things happened. On monday, i went to accompany jonathan, min hui and sock peng to get jonathan's specs. Then after that, we went to meet ken. In the end, we even went to chua chu kang. Min hui they all wanted to go eat long john silver so we went to eat. I didn't eat cause if i eat i may not have enough money to buy some stuff. After min hui they all bought their food, ken wanted to go to the basement to sort of accompany me go buy the shampoo and other stuff. So i said ok, anyway i couldn't stand watching them eat. It was definitely pure torture!! When we took the escalator, ken took something out from his pouch. He gave me the comic book that i wanted to buy! I was so in a shock! I didn't want him to waste money that's why i didn't want him to buy but i really didn't expect this! It was a really pleasant surprise. It was really sweet of him. After window shopping, we went back to join the rest. While going out of lot 1, we saw hui ching and the rest. Somehow i don't know why, jonathan hid ken behind a pillar! Siao one leh he... hide him for what?! Then he ask ken jokingly if he wants to gao anot. I doubt he even answer or just simply shook his head. After that, he sent me home. At night, i told him that i decided to be with him. Don't think this is a rash decision, but i just really like him. So the next day, we didn't see each other but we still sms each other. At first, it was a pleasant talk but after that, it became very bad. He wanted the address for my blog! So i gave it to him although i roughly know what was going to happen. Indeed, he started to have some doubts about whether i really have feelings for him. Then it started out really bad. Haiz.. forget it! I don't wish to talk about it. Just thinking about it can make me cry again. Then the next day, i kept looking at my phone. Seeing if he did sms me, but he didn't until around lunch break. So after school, we met up. He sent me home as usual so i asked him why he could acted like as though nothing happened. He told me that nothing really happened. I really admired him in this point. Then we talked at pimin's block until it was around 7-8 p.m. Then i had a terrible stomache pain and so happened pimin walked past. Then later i went pale. So they sent me to the doctor. After that, i went home. I got a scolding from my mom. Haiz... then ken sms me. He told me he thought that i didn't like him because i didn't really talk to him when i was sick. At least, i think that he was honest with me and he told me about his feelings. I don't blame him for thinking like this cause i neglected him. So i told him not to think like this cause i just wasn't well. Then he came and see me today. We didn't talk much. All we did was just stared at each other. I shall not go into further details about this. =p hehehe... it's a secret. *blush* *^-^* We sat around my block for a few hours before we left. And today, that mr ang didn't come again!! Stupid mr ang! It's because of him, we postpone our tuition to today and we had to wait for 1 hour for nothing. Today, he didn't come again and even when i'm sick i also got come. Haiz... it's getting late. I think i better go do my homework. Teehee...